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The Derelict Ship Returns

I haven’t written here much recently. Recently… Hah! It’s been nearly eight months. But, then, there’s a lot going on. The fall, winter, and spring months are always hardest for me, managing fibromyalgia pain. My joints and muscles are on fire what seems like 90% of the time. I’m also either titrating up on bipolar…

A Reason I Don’t Post

I’ve come to realize why I don’t post, why I don’t talk about myself much. I’m afraid. I fear what others are going to think, or say. This was instilled in me early by my father. My therapist has been telling me for a long time that I need to work my way around this,…

Trauma and the Things That Save Us

I read the essays in Last Night, A Superhero Saved My Life yesterday, pretty quickly after having received the book. It amazes me, even now, how much I identify with many of these writers and the events of their lives.

It inspired me to write my own essay about my trauma, and the things that saved me. Unfortunately, it wasn’t superheroes or comics, but it was still fiction and it is still important for me to write about it.

This is my essay. It rambles. My early life was chaotic, thus is the telling of it. I’d apologize for it, but why should I be sorry?

Memories on May the Fourth

It was one year ago today that we lost my father-in-law, Charlie, to lung cancer. It was fast, confusing, distressing, heartbreaking, and a whole host of things. Charlie and I had a strange relationship. When Caroline and I first started dating, I was this hulking, quiet, bear of a guy that was suddenly in his…

The Ups and Downs of a Day

Down: I had therapy this morning with my new therapist. Unfortunately, this morning is the last session with this therapist. There’s something missing from the sessions and I’m convinced there’s no way to fix it. Up: I finished a short story. Drafted it by hand and I approximate that it comes to about 1,500 words (it…

Thoughts On Internet Privacy

I’ve read a lot over my years as a developer about privacy, especially as it relates to the Internet and technology. My views have skewed from one extreme to another (Everything should be private! Nothing is private!). Over the last year or so, my views (and the actions that go along with them) have settled…

Moving Hosting Service

This is a grab bag of disjointed updates. I’m attempting to journal a bit more, so this is coming as a stream-of-consciousness style post. My wife, via her workplace, just got a free-for-life hosting deal for her websites. Which means we no longer really need the Linode VPS I’ve been running for us. I haven’t…

I’ve got no idea, but a house on the beach sounds nice

For the last couple of days, I’ve been playing around with some new software called Jekyll. It’s an alternative website compiler that just delivers static files, rather than being database-driven. It’s pretty slick. And it has been itching the tech geek bone a bit. I didn’t realize how much I missed noodling around with some…

Today’s Progress & Some Light On My Process

As of today, I’ve written a second outline for my fantasy story. I’ve now tentatively titled it The Sapphire Sword, though that’s bound to change over time. Stats: Title: The Sapphire Sword Word Count: 1000 fiction / 3400 (over two outlines) Total Words: 4400 Deadline: March 30, 2016 Genre: Fantasy On other fronts, I’m discovering…